My last full day in Alicante. After three days focusing on different kinds of therapy I decided to devote this day to recharge energy and rest before heading back to Madrid tomorrow. Yesterday I had my physical therapy and acupuncture in the morning and in the afternoon I have an amazing session with a powerful, loving, centered woman, Felisa Ullate Andres, who works with Chinese medicine, alternative therapies, magnets and Bach flowers. The session I had was almost 3 hours long.
We start started off by talking about what might be going on in my life to have created the disconnect between the right and left side of my brain. Basically she was saying that the tumors maybe have emerged because of the disconnect between my emotional and rational Selves. The conversation was quite powerful for me as a starting point. From there she gave me a very big hug and kissed my forehead and told me just to feel what I was feeling. After about five minutes, we talked about what I was feeling and essentially it came down to pure love, a sense of security, and a feeling of well-being in her embrace. We talked a bit about where that comes from and basically she told me I need to focus more on just opening up my heart to let pure love in and be my authentic Self. Sounds so new age, but it was powerful experience. Felisa is very special!
The rest of the session was a mix of lying on a table while she and her assistant measured energy in my body. She did this by listening to my pulses as well as using some kind of meter that she scanned over my brain as well as different parts of my body measuring how my energy was flowing. She and her assistant had a conversation back-and-forth in Spanish which I did not really follow.
She then went on to place magnets all over my body – lots of them – trying to bring my energies to a better place and balance them.
When I left yesterday I was so filled with balanced energy that when I got back to the room Antonio almost didn’t recognize me. Even I didn’t quite recognize myself. One of the things that I’m supposed to do in the evening before I go to sleep and when I wake up in the morning is to take one drop of a Bach flower liquid (Bach flower remedies are solutions of brandy and water—the water containing extreme dilutions of flower material developed by Edward Bach, an English homeopath, in the 1930s. Bach believed that dew found on flower petals retain imagined healing properties of that plant.)
This helps to be filled with memories of the session that I undertook. It’s supposed to contain all of the lessons that I learned during that session. I’m also supposed to go to sleep at night with a mantra which is something like “I am filled with sacred love because I am me.”
When I got back to the room yesterday, I told Antonio that what I need from him right now is just to love and be loved – to hold him and feel him holding me. That’s really the basics. I love when I can just hold him and be held by him and for now that’s what I need and nothing more. Yesterday evening was a beautiful evening and night just focusing on that.
I’m about to head out of the hotel to sit by the beach for a while to take in some fresh air and sun. That will be the essence of my day today.
Sending lots of love to everyone and getting all of your love in return.
P.S. By the way, I haven’t forgotten your voicemails or texts for those who have sent me messages about talking. For now please forgive me for not returning calls. Again, need to really just be calm and not spend all my time on the phone or email. And a number of you have sent suggestions about alternative therapies. For now, let me please focus on what I am doing – complementary stuff will come later! I will continue to work with Felisa by distance when I am back in NY.